i need a space to breathe
Tuesday, March 10, 2009 at 12:44 AM
seriously i need a space to breathe..not because i m too tied down with my r/s but is tired of my work..yes i only started working like 1week ago but i seriously bth the 4 senior citizen there..everyday is creating new pattern..showing OFF their true wolfy color.
let's name them Senior J, Senior R, Senior C & Senior M [tis is my in charge]
ytd was monday blue so didnt pen dwn alot of thing..but tdy is more den monday blue..is TUESDAY ORANGY..y FULL OF FIRE~~~
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ytd was having migraine pop a medic into my mouth n went to slp hence stopping the entry halfway. and worst of all i didnt have a gd nite slp i will skip e details tot..liping knw wat happen~
anyway i STILL wake up with a migraine but well i pop a medic again n drag myself to wrk..
but wrkin in tt environment with migraine is HELL..i nearly break dwn jux now..being accuse of not listening to instruction WHEN i does and i m sure i did cox i alwy pen dwn watever Senior M wan mi to do. As she had been accusing mi since my 1st day n i cant stand it any longer..
well i finish off n double check my list of job n when i m finished i inform her so that she can check. WHO KNOW she come out with new "rule" n say tis mux b done i ask u to do y didnt u do tt i take out my list n look tru NO I CAN SWEAR TO GOD SHE JOLLY WELL DIDNT MENTION TT FREAKING POINT TO MI.
i told her i dont rmb she saying she rebark back say i got poor memory n need to write them all dwn. i feel fuk up at tt very moment.
i guess she is e 1 with memory problem not mi bcox i had try to locate a few file in different timing. it wasnt in the cabinet it wasnt with my it wasnt with Juliah *my new fren + colleague she is e nicest person in the company* but she insist is with mi or juliah or in the cabinet..i keep saying no no no..she show mi e fustrated face and say go n find again BUT dont have how to find =(
in the end i jux giv up searching..simply dun wanna waste time so continue my filing with other file 1st n keep the invoice for the missing file till it surface later.
and true enough..it surface 1hr later where is it? u mux b curious am i rite? Senior M pass it to mi..she say it is under my table. den jux throw e file on my table n walk awy. during lunch time juliah told mi tt Senior M actually "invade" into her mini pantry behind the recept and dig for the file but to no avail..
and today she again say tt i had a lousy memory pls write dwn e thing she wan mi to do *yes i did but she wont admit tt she nv tel mi she will insist she said b4 but i forget* so she went to get a notebook for mi THROW ON MY TABLE and ask mi take dwn the bloody note..mind u i m having migraine n is alrdy half die but got tis kind of treatment..@ tt very pt of time tears roll inside my eyes..if i m nt strong enough i wont have break dwn n sob den call my agent n say i wanna quit. she even ask mi to find a full time job cox she tik tt my poor memory is due bcox i never work full time. i dont understand what is the diff btw full time n temp or part time. so working full time can train my brain more?
but the problem now is i m doing my studies so i dun wanna stress myself..i mean my mom is nt stressing mi y shld she..and cant i jux wrk temp for time being..at least i can mingle in diff company diff wrk environment diff wrk load and then come to a conclusion what exactly is the kind of post i wanna get into.
i dun wanna go wrk full time den end up wrking for 3-4mths i realise tt is nt e kind of post i want den what..slog slog slog den 1yr later job hoping?
sorry i dun have tt kind of mentality, i dun want thing to b so complicated i jux want simple..
another incident, last week they wanted to bad mouth abt juliah when juliah son was sick and she needed to bring him to the doc and left office @ 5pm (which actually is the offical knock off time for Juliah if there is no more meeting or no more loose paper wrk tt she need to clear..which mean in order words if on tt very day after 5pm there is no more meeting Recept can go off @ 5pm but juliah stay till 6pm daily..but they dun even praise her when she stay till late onli bad mouth her when she leave early..)
*door bell rang 3x* Senior J asked is SHE (juliah) still outside? Senior R *look @ e email den e clock* hmm if she leave straight after e email yes she is gone cox it had been 15min.
*roll eyes, isnt it obvious tt when e door bell ring 3 time mean no recept is outside as usually it onli ring once* Senior C walk out to get the door it turn out to b e dispatch uncle..Senior C walk back to e seat n said aiya tis Juliah ar..Senior R saying sarcasticlly said ppl son sick wat..den Senior J wanted to say something but ended up she say aiya nvm..i guess they can sense tt i m quite close with Juliah hence didnt say much..
but tel u wat..tt very week..all of them oso knock off early at least VERY often. Senior J knock off @ 4.30pm n 3pm respectively on Wed n Thurs, Senior C knock of early @ 4pm 1 of the day but she was 30min late every mrng! Senior R knock off @ 4.30pm EVERYDAY n was late every mrng too..
and today b4 i goin for lunch my e file standing on my table fall off and make some noise..Senior R was so freaking unhappy..she tsk @ mi n stare~ nvm abt it..but when i come back frm wrk I got said by Senior M, she said:
this table dun really have support so dont THROW ur file of the table if it break I DONT THINK U WILL HAVE MONEY TO PAY..
oH ya i m earning onli 7$ per hr nt like u 10 over k a mth..yes 10k+ a mth..cox i was reading true last yr audit file n i saw the payroll thingy..her per annum is 125k per yr not inclusive of bonus yet..bonus is 6.5k *if i rmb correctly but sky high*
oh well so when file fall is i m throwing file on the table la..since the table cant support e file y bother to place the file on top where by i alwy place on the floor but Senior M dun like..is like so wat the fucking hell u want can..
on a side note i wanted to get 13 april off as my mom need go SGH for check up as she had been having her backach for almost A MONTHS..but leave wasnt approve so i might jux go take mC..
my younger sis having 1st day of sch on tt very day..n my da mei leave is actually plan in advance kind so if last min want leave have to c if tt day got ppl wan to exchange with her ma..
i still got to tahan for another 37-38 working days..omg..tt is more den 1 mth..i will try to tahan but i wont bother to extend myself..i dun wanna stress myself working with them during May, when my exam is on June..
*ARGH* tml is wed~ mayb sun meeting my liping go do some shopping..
yes poor ger wan to shop..cannot meh..
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